HAIR!

Hair is amazing. Hair has always been a big deal to me. I used to iron my hair. I only cut it once, when I was teaching SCUBA diving and living in the pool, but even then, I started growing it again. My father loves my long hair. I sometimes used huge beer can rollers in my hair to make it straight. I loved and hated my hair. On one of my birthdays I put so much henna in my hair it turned orange. Once I cut off my hair on only one side of my head. That was weird. My hair started turning silver at an early age. I started highlighting it and would sit for hours with aluminum foil in it while Dante put all kinds of colors in it. It was fantastic. It was ridiculous. I stopped it. My hair became silver, wild, curly, wavy, and crazy. I did not know what to do and was about to shave my head and become a Buddhist or wear lots of hats. One day, in a book store, I found a book that said – LOVE YOUR CURLY HAIR. I followed that cult and discovered how to treat my silver wildness and to this day LOVE  my hair. I was in a rock band, and it was just because my hair was so amazing. I met my husband while playing Fender Rhodes (electric piano) in that rock band. I fell in love with him and Kundalini Yoga. And now my spiritual name Hari, is often spell corrected to be “Hair”.

Then one day I put on a turban. After finally making peace with my curls and seeing the brilliant silver shine as they fell to my waist, I was about to cover them up!  I looked in the mirror and tied that turban. I was longing for something deep, ready to cover up those sliver lights and light myself up from within. I had worked so hard to find that love and that beauty of my hair and now I was going to cover it up? What was i thinking? I was ready to let go of an attachments and see the brightness of the light within myself and everyone.

One day making the videos for my online courses, a team member, upon seeing my hair for the first time exclaimed; “Hari! You cannot imagine how many people would study if you kept your hair down!”. My hair is amazing.  And there it was. I smiled from deep within myself and said “no”. Tied my turban the best I could (bad turban days do happen) and continued to turn inward to find that light within and shine it and that is what I hope for every woman. LOVE your hair, LOVE your body. No matter what. And more than all of that, look within. Listen to the world that is guiding you to constantly look within – go deeper. Be happy. You ARE illumined from within.  

High School Hari Hair. Hair is a big deal. Love is bigger.